Friday, December 21, 2012
#2 Feeling Pain through Poetry (Getting to know a girl named Carrie)
I usually write poetry when I'm really upset about a subject that is not yet confrontable. They aren't happy go lucky...but it's what I do to get my thoughts out. Here are some poems I've written, they range from 1-4 years old The Judgement why do you judge me? what is it for? once vulnerably standing now face to the floor am I better here? I felt better out there I've locked my soul in this little dark place so your blinding light won't bury me in shame why should I have shame because of you deal with your own convictions it's not me, it's you with my luck you'll read this a moment too late you've already judged the "food on my plate" something so little you've made so huge and now you're wondering "Oh what do I do" I'm not apologizing for who I am where I come from or my life plan although it may be different from yours we're all Christs children of whom he adores so take a minute step down from that horse you're too high up to steady the coarse and this oh this it's what I do to deal with you and you and you and all the pain I feel so here's a thought look at you not me because I'm not perfect and don't claim to be I know you just need something to busy your life to forget YOUR problems to forget YOUR life but why don't you stop knocking on my door because in the end YOU"LL be on the floor how sad it must be to live your life judging me in The Body of Christ He Drinks He drinks...he drinks...and then he drinks again the glass he holds on to his only lasting friend his drinking buddies are good for one thing just another drink but when the alcohol runs out, they're off the scene silently we sit by biting our tongues wanting so much to say something, but nothing comes we want to spend time with you, we miss our friend but he won't know until his heart mends one day he'll look back and see all he missed but until then, he takes another sip the pain is too real, so he'll just hide behind a beer glass that's fogged from inside it slowly poisons him, but he thinks it's fun playing roulette with this loaded gun what will happen, what might it be? as this feeling inside he tries to flee what is the fate that might land him one day? maybe sooner than later...I dare not say then we'll be left with the pain in our hearts knowing we would have said something, if we were smart so I know he's out there and we're stuck in here wishing he knew the love that we fear Those who live by the sword An attack on our Country, has started a war thousands have died, what was it for? sitting in an office, doing their work while men out to kill, wait in the lurk Heroes went out, to fight for broken lives they died in this battle, leaving husbands and wives children who are missing a parent or two parents missing children, who've become forever blue and who is this enemy we fight with such pride? who makes his videos and never ceases to hide bravely these men fight, to protect where we sit day in, day out fighting, never able to quite the thousands of lives effected that day have continued to be, 10 years as we pray 10 years is long, some forget why WE don't hide comfortable in their home, thinking, "Oh, it's just pride" for every action there must be a consequence so to me what happened makes perfect sense you see, we're in a war which was started by him and like many, he has died, my attitude's not grim I won't apologize for my feeling of gratitude for the men who defended our Country, the red, white and blue see to me it's not a question of love and grace he got what he put out, an end to this chase maybe our true feelings really do come out in war like who believes are rights and freedoms are worth fighting for so please keep in mind as you sit in the house you chose that this morning you peered into your closet and picked out your clothes remember on the way to your job today you picked the radio station or music to play watching the television channels you enjoy with the children you decided to have, that bring you such joy spouting off what you think about our President and criticizing how our military takes action and time is spent remember that how you got that freedom of speech is from our military fighting to keep freedom for each.